My story

hello im and african american teen and i am currently 18 going on 19 in a few months. I remember how it all started when i was about 8 and my cousins came to visit me. there from the west Indies and been walking on hard ground since they where born and had very rough feet. idk why but i thought it was so cool so i started taking a nail clipper and clip off the skin of my feet. that was the worst decision i ever made. ever since then i started doing that to my feet because it gave me a sense of pleasure. after years and year my feet started to look worse. now that i am 18 my feet look horrible. and the picking spread to my legs. i have huge sores and i constantly just dig for no reason. i want to stop everyday. i would stop for a week or two. think im going good then when i get stressed out im right back at it. im convinced that i must be crazy, but i dont really think so. i just think i spend to much time in my room or something. thats like only time im alone with my feet with a nail clipper or anything sharp. Picking my feet makes me socially okward. i dont have much friends, things like going to the beach. playing b-ball with my friends are out the picture now. the only time i did go to the beach i wore my socks in the water.... i haven't had a girlfriend in a while. and i rarely have sex. im to self conscious of the huge scabs on my legs to take off my pants. life really sucks with this problem. i dont know what to do anymore.