Let's see if I can go the whole (rest!) of February! Join me if you want! :)

just completed day 13 and onto day 14! i can't believe its been almost 2 weeks. its great, definitely less mental stress and worry and time wasted in front of the mirror. my skin is clear with the exception of the scars healing which is driving me crazy because of course i always have to obsess over something not being perfect, ugh. But I know even the medications I use will take time, so patience will be key. Atleast make up helps more effectively than if it were a scab! Good luck everyone.

Underneath Nails, Day 1) Oh boy this is much harder. Still, I've proven to myself that I can do it if I try :)

Underneath Nails-Day 2) Oh so haaaaaard. working for most of the day tomorrow though so hopefully I won't think about it.

1 more week! on day 15 now though yesterday was a close call.....still frustrated by recent red marks and i have switched from harsher products to soothing neosporin and aloe vera lotion and the irritation has subsided for the most part...just in a hurry to look good for when i see everyone for the first time in awhile next week ughh so desperate for there to be no red :(

in the home stretch and the past 2 days I have allowed little slip ups like getting out small white heads that I had allowed to come to a head these past weeks, but today begins absolute no touching..I use aloe vera lotion and my rash is gone, things are fading(slow pace though grr), and I just really want whatever is red to have the opportunity to lighten as much as it possibly can before Friday. Friday morning I have an early flight, and travel days are always tough- don't you agree? Its like not only are you stuck in an airplane with low-ventilation that makes skin sallow but then, in my case, during my layover the airport bathrooms are so gross and busy that I can't reapply make up and I just feel disgusting all day..Women with clear skin swear by certain toners that they can apply in airports in between flights but I can't add anything without taking my make up off which I certainly cannot do. Atleast with no scabs, I can trust my make up will stay on the smooth areas better and I won't look as bad. Good luck everyone who seems to be having a hard time, idk what it was about this time that just made me say enough is enough, but I will say this forum is a wealth of information and motivation about getting rid of the disorder, so while your hibernating because you can't let anyone see your face, do your research thats what I did. :)

Underneath Nails-Day 3) Oh had loads of close calls today. Grr........

the aloe vera has really helped my face and today i 'm doing better only touching it to apply make up. red red go awaaaaay ugh thats my biggest pet peeve right now..

Underneath-Day 4) Getting better!

Just checking in :) I'm doing well. I finally got the dermatologist to prescribe me a new oral medication which I think will work very well. Keep on moving forward!

so i'm only going to mirror if i need to apply make up or medicine so i decided i'm not going to approach the mirror unless i have what i need to put on in my hand....you need two hands to pick so holding osmething stops you and also reminds you why you're there before getting lost in a trance....

Keep it up every1. I have been going good lately. Week and 2 days without picking. I almost started today. I seem to be very depressed and have been biting my nails all day. I think the lil scars and marks that are left is part of whats depressing me 'oh was it rele worth it!' u know. Plus, i now feel like a little girl stepping out to the world, need to get a job again after loosing it last May- I feel like a nothing. Social anxiety also holding me back. I have hardly no 1 rele- im in a relationship im starting to question. Mum doesnt love me no more or like me. Only wen shes in a good mood/things going wel for her or shes had a laff with bro and dad. She has never understood me. Been dragged to have al these tests to see whether i have dyslexia/dyspraxia-mum believing that if i had a label I wont be fired so easily. Its the social anxiety rele i think. Al my mum and dad talk about is work and my bro is different towards me when with mum. Mum likes the fact if dad is on her side and not mine. Think shes jelous. Dad usd to always stick up for me. A whole year really badly marking my face-cant believe it. Now that ive come out of that daze of skin picking-i feel like im looking at my life sober-thinking now what-how am i going to fix all this. Got the skin picking 'hangover' i suppose lol. Just feel v alone. Lets get our skins looking clear for the spring/summer. A new beginning. X

UN-Day 1......again......) Yep, fell off the wagon. Again. Sigh. Oh well, if at first you don't succeed...........Keep up the good work everyone!

ugghhh i'm struggling and idk what to do! idk why either i mean i just stopped for sooo long. help?