Wow! I had no idea!

I cannot believe this is a thing. I mean, I can, but I had no idea there were so many of us out there. I am so desperate and so relieved all at the same time. I am 30 years old mother of a toddler. I have been picking on and off for as long as I can remember. I am not the only one in my family. My brother and my first cousin do it as well. It is particularly bad on my brother because he has a thyroid problem which makes it even more difficult for his skin to heal. My picking seems to be significantly worse with stress. The last 4 years have been the worst. My my arms and legs are completely covered in old scars and new sores. I have always picked, but I never remember it being this bad. I lost a baby girl in 2007. Since then I have been going down hill as far as picking and anxiety. I do take medication for the anxiety, but it does not seem to stop the picking. What led me to this site was the recent before and after pictures of Meth users. The sores on their faces resembled my sores. I did a search to see what caused there sores. It was a number of things including toxins, paranoia and anxiety, as well as the feeling of creepers under the skin. Anyway, it made me upset, because some parts of my body look like that. I don't want people to think I am a drug user. I hardly even drink! So, I did another search to see if I could find "non drug users" with the same symptoms and I came across this site. I don't know what to do. I need help. I go to the doctor, and it is a skin problem. I go to the dermatologist and it is a mental problem. I go to a psychiatrist and she sends me back to the doctor. I don't know how to fix this, I don't know how to stop, I don't know where to go. I don't want my son to end up like me. I hope this site will help lead me down some of the right paths to fix this problem. I am desperate and I hurt.