I only just began to realize this.

I think I must have some severe anxiety issues. I am 16. As long as I can remember, I've ripped open my flesh. I'd scratch myself because I liked to watch my skin ooze. I rip off scabs. I worry any bumbs that appear on my skin. I cut open or pop zits. I tear at dry patches of skin until they're rubbed raw. Sunburn is the worst. I go to town on peeling sunburn. I've pulled out my hair for years, too. I'm more in control of it than I was when I was, say, ten, eleven years old. But I still do it. I still glare at the unevenness of my hair that I've caused myself and try to think of a way to make it less obvious. I pick my skin. I rip off scabs. I yank out hair. I bite my lip. I can't just stop. It's compulsive, I've come to recognize. And, hello the internet. I've learned a little more about it. I'm currently curled up in an armchair with a roll of toilet paper to catch the blood that's dripping down my leg. I just couldn't leave alone my burn. I'm tired of scars. I'm tired of bleeding. I'm tired of ponytails every day. Does anyone have any short term solutions? I know I should probably seek out professional help. It would be nice to get to the roots of my issues. But my mother doesn't need to be freaked right now. And I can't afford it. So for the time being, are there ways I can keep myself in check?