I'm not alone

I have been picking my teeth for as long as I remember. I never thought there would be others with this same problem . I don't know exactly why I do it... I just now that, the more it hurts, the more I bleed and the more skin I can pick off my gums, the better I feel. My gums are receding very badly, and I know I need to stop , but I can't. I have to have my picking ritual daily or I go nuts thinking about how bad I want to pick