nervous posting

Hello..I am 25yrs of age and within a span of a year I have developed a terrible pattern of acne,skin picking. Although this post is anonymous in a sense I am so fearfull of being judged and rediculed because I am definatly one of those ones who should "know better". I take on a care giving role everyday of my life..am a home care nurse part time and a full time Mum to a bubbly 2year old girl. I had developed post partum depression after my daughter was born which became something I have struggled with and is ongoing in a sense that I am taking medication for it. Also diagnosed with late onset PTSD(post traumatic stress disorder) from having repressed past memories from my child hood. Such a terrible feeling of shame after looking at the scars, acne scars that have accumulated. All hidden of course... Shoulders, chest and face. The worst is on my breasts. I pick blackheads and squeeze pimples until its to the point my skin is reddened,puffy,sore or scabbed. I also have dark thick hairs that grow on my cheeks that I pluck constantly,wax etc. I feel mostly numb while performing the terrible act of picking, but am aware of the consequences. I just want to wake up in the morning and not worry about how I am looking. I have a terrible knot in my throat and stomach after rereading my post. Thank you for reading my post.