18 years old and heartbroken over what im doing to myself

Hey fellow skin pickers. I just registrated today and i wanted to share some of my picking issues. I guess everyone here knows what pain and low confidence this picking causes to you. I really feel disgusted with myself, i hate seeing myself in the mirror with little clothes on. I´ve been picking since i was a child. I remember my mum told me "stop picking your skin, you look sick with all those scabs, one day when your older you´ll want to wear pretty dresses and show off your legs etc, so stop now." I took me a while but then i pretty much stopped and i do not remember how?! I guess it was pretty easy then cause at that point i had´nt been doing it for so long. Years have passed and i´ve picked a bit, but not to the point i couldnt show myself infront of people in a bikini or anything, actually i had pretty good skin. Then two years ago i started picking a LOT again, more than ever actually. And since then i haven´t been able to stop. I pick my legs, arms, face and occasionally on my chest. Its been awful all of this. I havent been able wearing any of the summerclothes and always dress in jeans and a cardigan over a top. Almost everyday! I can´t date anyone either cause thats pretty much mission impossible looking like this. The thing is i also got OCD real bad in September last year and my picking got worse along with the huge anxiety OCD brought me. Its just now a couple of weeks ago i actually realized that this picking IS a BIG PROBLEM. I dont want to hide anymore :( !!! I love shopping and i would like to wear all of my beautiful dresses that i never can show myself in like this. I just want to stop this for so many reasons, i hate myself for doing this. I look awful and i´m so jelous seeing some girls in beautiful outfits with their good looking healthy skin. I know i am not alone with this problem and i really hope for all of us that we get through this!!! We should then have a big beachparty and all of us feeling confident and proud of ourselfs in swimwear, lol! Man i wish i could be at the beach in my bikini :(