Picking

I have suffered from picking on my skin for as long as I can remember. Almost a;ways when I pick, I feel like I'm going to make my skin better, but I always end up feeling work. I have a huge amount of anxiety, and I can't stand doing this to myself. I have a tendancy to be at odds with myself, and others. I find it very difficult to accept my skin as is, and I don't always play well with others either. For example, I had a breakfast meeting with a couple colleagues today, and almost everything my coworker was saying, every idea he put forth, I had to oppose it. I don't know why I was so disagreeable. I just ended up being that way. I have alot of negativity and pessimism in my work life, I can be very undependable, shy , and aloof, gossipy, and full of lust toward the people I work with-alot of these things cause me to pick. At home I try to control my husband, and I get jealous all the time, I just don't feel like I'm good enough. I'm just so grateful that you all are here.