The beginning of the rest of my life:)

Hello, I guess I'll just jump right in. I just turned 18 less than a week ago and I feel like these coming years are supposed to be the best years of my life. I don't want to be hindered by skin picking. Its not worth it. I'm ready to experience life to its fullest by not having to wory about what to cover on my body. I want to experience my senior pr om! And wear a backless dress fearlessly! Also, this summer I'm going to France and I want to ROCK A BIKINI while were staying on the mediterrean! ;) Before I've always made excuses to my friends by telling them I didn't like dances or swimming so I didnt have to go. Of course I've tried stopping before by writing in a journal and that worked for about a week but theres no motivation writing to an inanimate object, so I gave up. Also, I'm kinda aware of why I do it. My family life has been difficult so picking has been a coping mechinism. Oh and I use it as a procrastination tool so I dont have to do homework because I get too tired from picking. The way I see it, I will never fully get better until I address the underlying problems because the appearance of my skin expresses how I feel on the inside. Luckily, I have the motivation to get better, but I lack the follow through. I never realized how defining habits can be until I did research but that led me here, so maybe this is just what I need. :) Ive already read some posts and they are truly inspiring. I'm ready to get help, the question is: will you help me? Thank you for reading this. I've discovered I'm not alone and I can get better!