I cant take it anymore:'(((((((((

So this past weekend I tried starting a thirty day challenge(I have been stopping picking A LOT lately) and guess what happened. I started picking a lot. I thought I would stop completely because I was doing so good and I thought the 30 day challenge would help. I picked more than usual. My skin was looking so good. It doesn't look that bad right now but everytime I get to a good point I always mess it up again. I just can't take it anymore. I'm ruining my body. I hate myself:'(. I just want to die. I think if this disorder continues for a decent length of time I will end up killing myself or do something way more harmful. This disorder completely sucks and I hope that we will all be free of this. No one deserves to have this. Im sure I'm not the only one that feels this way. Tomorrow I'm starting a new 30 day challenge. I hope this works:(