My name is Rebecca :)

I am sixteen years old and I have CSP, compulsive skin picking. I have been picking my skin for almost 11 years, since I was five years old and I have realized that I need to stop. No matter how gratifying it is and no matter how much it relieves my stress, I need to stop because it causes more stress than relieves it. Picking at my skin has been a curse. I spend my time thinking of what others think of me and it is an embarrassment to not only myself but my parents as well. I never realized that CSP was a real disorder, I thought that I was the only one and that I was just messed up. I thought yesterday on my way to church though,"I'm going to start not picking... TODAY!" It's harder than it seems though. I started my research today and I had a total "aha" moment. The lightbulb came on. What I found on different sites related directly to me, and through my research I found this forum. I am so thankful to have found this site, you guys have no idea. I am officially going down the road to stopping my CSP today. It is nice to meet all of you. ~Rebecca