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Hope
I have been suffering with Dermatillomania for over 8 years now. Just last month I found out my condition had a name. I found this forum and feel that your stories and support will help me overcome this. I always thought I was alone and could never understand why I did what I did and what was wrong with me. It is nice to know I am not. I think this forum will be a therapeutic outlet to share my story and my progress. I feel really grateful to have found this site. I am filled with a new hope.
March 28, 2012
Day One:
Today, I have decided to stop picking. I pick my face, chest, and shoulders. I have picked my legs in the past. To help motivate me, I have decorated a jar where I will deposit $2 for everyday I go without picking. I will use the money I earn to get chemical peels and microdermabrasion treatments to help fade the scars I have given myself.
March 29, 2012
Day Two: The night of day one was difficult for me. I seem to always struggle more at night when I am tired and all the days events are weighing on me. I only picked for a few seconds, but then I was able to yank myself away from the mirror. Today I am doing better and am hoping for more success tonight. My skin is also healing from the episode I had before I started this commitment to overcome my picking. It is a huge boost to actually feel pretty and not have to wear as much make up.
March 31, 2012
Day Three:
I really want to pick right now.
I have resisted so far.
I hope that by tomorrow morning I can say I succeeded.
April 01, 2012
Day Four:
I fell apart last night. Picked my arms something horrid. Luckily, they are healing quickly and looked much better today. I didn't pick today though so I am celebrating that! It is Sunday so I am really trying to make it an entire week without picking.
April 05, 2012
It has been a few days and I was really doing well, but I cracked and just barely finished picking. I had a lot of errands I needed to run today and now I am stuck at home waiting for the swelling and the sores on my face to fade. It is going to be a few hours before I can even attempt covering them up with makeup. I feel so awful and worthless. I hate how ugly I feel.