so thankful, im not the only ome!

I just found this website after hardcore picking episode and looking up what to do. I picked all last night long, I didn't sleep at all. I do this all the time.. picking at white bumps I know don't pop all the blackheads all in my pores then using an antibacterial face wash so the white heads pop upand I can go back for round 2, then 3. Then so on.. in October I took finger nail clippers to my face.. I don't know why I do this to myself.. whenever I look in a mirror I cannot walk away from it until every pore is inflammed and empty. I'm a 17 year old girl Ive been doing this as long as I can remember and no one understands.. my pores on my face are huge and I have no idea what to do. I'm on adhd medication so when I get focused, its impossible to stop. I don't only pick at my face , I pick at my back, my shoulder's, my chest even my nipples and the hair frolicswhere my pubic hair grows.. I pluck them tweasers and then force anything out of the pore that I can. the really sad thing is I don't really have acne .just a few little white things that you can't pop and all the black heads I've giving myseld due to picking but I look a mess all the time. Except when I get sun and it hides the scars and I can't really see any blackheads so I don't pick. But that's only one week a year when I go on vacation.. I pick every single day.. if I don't do it infront of a mirror I do it in the shower. I've been to a dermatologist before and she was no help, just gave me hardcore chemicals that bleach my skin and eyebrows . I have no idea what to do anymore ... I've ruined my life before its began . I know that seems to sound quite shallow, but we live in a society where appearance means a lot.. I have so many scars all over my chest I don't know what to do when summer comes.. I've always picked at my face but this winter is when all the other areas got so "interesting" gosh this is a long rant I'm just so happy to know that I am not the only one who knows what it is like to physically not be able to stop.. most times while I'm picking ill even be yelling at myself to stop and ill just be like wait one more good one. No that one wasn't good enough. That one wasn't either and the cycle dosnt stop until I'm puffy,empty. And sore. I need help. I don't know what to do .. Dose anyone have any tips or tricks for facials Toners ect. ? I've noticed apple cider vinegardeluted with equal water works well as a toner