gorgeous but i still pick at my skin.

I'm actually really gorgeous. I make heads turn when I walk down the street and when I'm driving I get whistled at, compliments all the time too. But, I have a terrible problem with skin picking. It started in 6th grade after a tragic event and then in 7th grade I began to cut, and actually attempted suicide. I felt ugly all the time even though I'm actually really pretty. I am now 18 and I went 2 years without skin picking in 10th and 11th grade everyone told me I had beautiful skin. Those were the years I went tannning. Though I thought tanning fixed my skin, it did for 2 years then I got sundamage and began picking at my skin again, lately I haven't been picking bad enough to the point where I have open wounds anymore,but I pick and pick at blackheads so obessesively I'm starting to come to the realization I need serious help. I cry after I do it, and I'm supposed to be gettting back into my modeling career but I can't with this skin picking thing taking control over my life. I just recently found that its an actual disorder and that I'm not the only one that's doing it. No one undertstands that I can't just stop, my mom doesn't get it nor anyone else and I was hoping to get feedback from others about how they've learned to control their urges. Please help!