Hair pulling

when I was little I would tie tiny little knots in my hair at night. The only way to get them out of course, was to pull them out. My head would hurt, and I would wake up with 3-5 knots of hair on the floor by my bed. I didn't think about it until now. Also I grab a little piece of cheek skin and rip it with my teeth. In that process I make a scrunched up face. I try not to do it at school but I cant not do it. People shoot me strange looks, so I cover it with my hand. It's hard! Life is hard! Everybody's life seems so bubblegum pink! With happy lives and rich little families. I have a good life compared to some. Everyones so pretty and they have no homework and they do sports and they can do everything without falling apart! Now that doesn't mean I can never be happy. It takes alot though. I used to have a really good friend. He made me laugh so much and make me feel so good. But then he found put I loved him and so now it's back to strangers. And that's when I noticed a huge change in my nail/acne/cheek picking. it got worse. Now it takes alot to make me laugh that hard Goodnight everybody, good luck to all! :) ~orange~