I was doing fine..

I was doing fine until a few hours ago. I saw ONE TINY little pink mark and then I started scanning my face and picking everything apart. I now have a sore chin and feel like I want to die. I called a crisis line and really didn't get anywhere. My therapist is terminally ill and has closed her practice. I literally feel like garbage. The spots will heal, they are not deep..but I have no self control anymore