I can't fight the urge

Hey everybody! It's great to know I am not alone. I am 18 years old. I don't have bad acne at all. But when I break out, I usually make it worse than it was... I pick at an blemish, bump, or anything on my face. Standing at the mirror for hours, as close as possible, nose up against the mirror. I know what I am doing is wrong. But for some reason I think using a needle, tweezers, or picking will make it all better. It obviously doesn't. When I do pick, and cover it up and have to go to school, I feel like everybody stares at me... I also don't know how to tell my mom without being lectured about how she told me not to do it. Recently I picked at my skin on my chin right under my lip. Every night I apply neosporin or vaseline, and I also heard apple cider vinegar would prevent scarring. So far I have been lucky where my picking has not left scarring. However, I feel like this area I picked recently is starting to form a bump. What can I do to prevent it from forming a raised scar. Please help!