never knew others were suffering with this till now

wow. i am overwhelmed. i thought i was all alone in this skin picking behaviour. i've been dealing with this for years- i'm 26 now and can remember starting this back when i was in high school...i wish i knew how and why i started. i always wish i never did. i've read several posts on here and found relief and comfort to know i'm not alone... it's a hard disorder to overcome. just when you see your skin on your face has healed and you promise yourself you won't pick at it anymore, a little pimple starts forming, and out with the tweezers. i go through terrible ups and downs with this. my face is where all the damage gets done. it is mortifying how from one day a little red dot turns into a huge gapping hole and you spend hours trying to 'fix' it but it only gets worse... i'm dealing with a big one now near my lips and i'm praying and hoping that it will heal in the next week as i have a huge event on friday. i've tried putting the calamine lotion before bed, but when i wake up it's hard to take off-- so i use hot water, but it's just as bad as the night before... the skin is raw... please PLEASE i need the best advise as to how i can speed up the heeling- obviously- aside from trying not to touch it. i always crawl back to the tweezers to remove the scab and hope it will be dry underneath, but it's always wet and i have to wait till it dries so i can cover it up. i will not be caught dead out of my room without concealer. i hate it. any tips will be greatly appreciated. and kudos to all those who have reached out on this forum and shared your stories. i wish you all luck and strong will to get passed this disorder.