In a Bad Place

Hi everyone, so this is my first post...I'm 19 years old, a sophomore in college, and I'm finally coming to terms with the fact that I need help. I've been picking my legs for over 3 years now, and I thought it was just a passing phase. If anything, it has worsened over time. I'm weighed down by heavy guilt, shame, embarrassment, helplessness, hopelessness. I started picking before started taking Zoloft, but the medicine hasn't helped a bit, despite what I've read about the positive effects of SSRIs on these urges to pick. I just feel like, no matter how much make-up I wear, no matter how I style my hair, I'm always going to be ugly--unless, that is, I seek help. I feel stranded, and I just need to talk to someone who understands. I broke up with my boyfriend recently; he didn't understand my depression, so there's no way he would understand this. I can't stop picking, and then I feel like I can't stop shaming myself after the fact. I just want to be, for once in my life, free of all of these horrible feelings that drag me down. First it was the depression, now it's the Dermatillomania. I feel like I'm imprisoned in my own mind. Can someone please tell me that they've recovered from this, that it's possible? I cannot live like this anymore, it's getting to the point where I'm thinking suicidal thoughts every now and then. I just need to know that I can beat this, because right now I can't imagine a life where I can wear skirts and shorts, where I can wear a bathing suit or even walk to the bathroom in a robe without feeling so much embarrassment. Thank you, and I wish you all the best.