Story of my life

I've been picking my skin since I'm 12. In less than two months, I'll be turning 24. I pick my arms, my back, my face, and my nipples. I want to stop it but I don't know how. I've been dealing with this shit for too long... I am getting sick of it. I feel powerless. It's like my mind was using me as a puppet and making me do this without me wanting to do it, but being conscious at the same time. I have OCD and skin picking is not the only compulsive behavior that I have had. Not to mention my thoughts... Sleep paralysis is at the order or the day. And, last but not least, last month I had a sort of hallucination. I do not enjoy life anymore. In fact, I do not know if I ever had. I hope to have a better and healthier life someday. Luckily, writing this post and releaving myself by talking to you guys would be the first step for me to change my way to live life and the way I see the world around me. Sorry for my English, I am not a native as you may have noticed already. If any of you have already stop picking yourselves or if you feel we can help each other somehow, please let a message below this post! I wish you all a good day!