mom trying not to pass it to kids

Its funny I thought that I was the only one who suffered through this I have had acne sense about 11 years old its always been the thing to pop the white heads then moved to the black heads now I find myself digging holes into my face not only that but its on my arms legs intimate places I am so sick of looking in the mirror and all I see are the bumps and scars. Today was the last straw I had a bad white head on my chin and now it’s a big hole I didn’t mean to make it a hole but I thought if I just get the stuff out it will be better that plan didn’t work out I am hoping by writing this down and posting it I will finally start to get better . My biggest fear is that my kids will do the same as mommy .I will not let this happen . They are beautiful kids I would feel so horrible if I saw a hole on there face I could not live with myself. So here is my promise to my self everyday I am going to post on here my progress of healing. I am going to find people who are suffering with this like AI am to talk to I am going to get my acne under control for my husband and my kids I will understand that I am worth more and will stop hurting my self I am GOING to stop picking my body apart Thank you for this forum for giving me the chance to write this down and hopefully help me keep my promise not only for me but my family.