I am not going to pick right now.

I want to pick. I have gone 14 days but a few minutes ago I just tried to "pop" a couple spots on my arms. I cannot do this! I am getting married in 6 days so I cannot have marks on my arms. I am stressed, tired, I have my period. I am not going to pick right now. I am typing on this forum instead. I am still thinking about the black head my fiance has on his forehead. I have already made a couple attempts to pick at it. I asked him again today if I could squeeze it. I want to recover from this addiction. "God, take my will and my life, guide me in my recovery, show me how to live, clean." I need help