40 years of Dermatillomania

I m a 49 year old female that has had Dermatillomania since I was a young child. I've had a lot of tragic life events that has left me with many BFRB, high anxiety and depression. I know when I hurt myself that I am hurting my love ones. I can not control myself sometimes and I fall into the cycle of HURTING, HIDING and HEALING. I am very good at makeup coverage and I hate when people say your skin looks great! I feel awful like you have know idea how I abuse myself/skin. My new therapist says I have this issue because I did not properly bond with my mother who has been deceased since 1986 at the age of 37. I really want to stop this behavior now. I would love go into my fifties Dermatillomania free. I have to go out in public today and there is no way I can hide the damage I've done to my face. I get so sick to my stomach thinking of having someone notice my gross issue. I have months of remission and then I start the cycle again.