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What can I do to stop picking at my skin
Hi everyone. Glad to know I am not alone. Sorry to hear that more people suffer as I do. I am 37 and have picked since I was about 15. 22 years of this. Now I am a mother and I come to tears to hear my children talk about mommy's many many boo-boos. If I wasn't embarassed enough for myself, now I am embarrassed for my children. I try to stop, I think I have stopped, and then I look down at my arms and it looks like I have chicken poxs. I don't even remember picking!!!!
What can I do to end this? What has worked for you guys?
I'm 17. I've only been picking for 2 years. It wasn't bad at first just a maybe 3 scabs Then as time went by I would get a bump or an itch and I would pick it till it bleed. Some say it's a form of self harm. I don't believe so. It got worse over months. I had "bites" all over my arms,legs,feet,thighs from "misquotes". That's what I would like everyone to believe. My mom knew though and only my closest friends. They would catch me digging or picking and tell me to quit that. I always said I try but I just can't. I got them all over my scalp soon enough. I have them everywhere. I have at least 17 big scabs on my scalp. Those are my favorite to pick. I feel disgusting about it but honestly it's such a problem. After my first year of getting the scabs I started doing drugs. Pills, spice,real,drinking, I've done meth twice but never again. That's what people think the scars and scabs are now. They either think I'm crazy because they look like cigarette burn marks or they think I'm a meth head that likes to pick. Which isn't true. I still do everything besides meth. I had a bad years from age 6 to 15. My life was awful. I went through sexual abuse, mental abuse. I've seen my family members get arrested countless times. I've seen them seizure out almost overdosing and dying from drug abuse. I guess you could say it fucked my head up major. I'm bipolar, I have depression, and really bad anxiety. I think that's why I pick. My anxiety honestly. I've got sent to rehab because I almost had a heart attach from taking too many pills. While I was there I had to talk to countless therapist,doctors,and nurses. None of them really knew what to say when they saw me pick or all my scars. I know everyone notices them. I hate it. I hate myself because my skin was flawless before I started picking. Not even a pimple or anything. Now I look awful. No one understands unless they pick too. It calms me down sometimes or distracts me when I'm not comfortable. I do it at school all the time. Everyone watches me I try to quit it but I'll find my hand in my scalp a minute later picking once again. I have about 30 "burn marks" on each leg. I have only a couple on my feet. My arms are covered in them. People probably think I have lice when I pick my scalp. Great reputation for high school right. It's been making me more depressed lately just looking at my skin. I want help but no one knows what I'm talking about when I tell them I pick. They say drugs are why I pick. Bullshit. I picked a whole year before I ever did any type of drug. When I'm in my depressive state because of my bi polar disorder I will stay in bed for days and cry and cry I won't eat or drink I just sit there pick and pick I'll start digging or find something to get the whole scab completely off. I'm not satisfied until it's all the way off. I feel like I make people's skin crawl when they see me. It's sorta like an addiction to me. My scalp will be bleeding and I catch people staring at it when they talk to me. I just wish all my scars were gone and I never picked again. I'm not strong enough tho to quit it I guess. When I talk to people who cut hoping they would understand they even sometimes get a little grossed out. My mom understands she use to pick too& she was a bad alcoholic. She quit tho. I know she wants me to but it's just so hard. And what guy wants to be with a girl who is covered with ugly big scars and scabs all over body. My friends will say "quit picking" really loud at school then everyone looks at me. I feel like dying when people hear that. I don't like making myself bleed. I like knowing I got the whole scab off for some reason it makes me feel cleaner or something like that. I pick at infected hairs,bites,anything that's a little bump. Then by the time I'm done with it, it becomes 10 times the size it actually was. I knew other people picked. Just not a lot.
I have found that when I have the urge to pick, if I take my hands and brush my skin and scalp all over, the urge rapidly goes away and I feel comfortable. Hope this works for you.
Try to identify the cause of the picking. My counselor was so focused on it as an ocd symptom, but I felt strongly that it was a bad coping mechanism for stress and anxiety. The treatment for anxiety is different than OCD..they're related but different.
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