Keeping My Eyes on the Prize

Almost done day three in this forty day challenge and feeling good. My skin is already clearing. It clears pretty fast for how much damage I have caused it. However, I am getting a lot more white heads then I am used to having. I need to get better skin care products and get my prescription cream ASAP. Having less white heads to pick at would make this a lot easier. I’m sure most of them are caused from scaring though, since past acne scars always come back as big white heads for me. I just need to try to stay optimistic about this challenge because three days is really not a lot of time for a destroyed face to heal. It’s just enough time to be extremely proud that I could last this long (especially with the immense amount of stress that I have been under). I’ve been looking at pictures of me when I randomly had flawless skin, and I think I looked so beautiful then. I don’t know how I even got there. It was only a year or two ago and I was picking often at that time. I guess I had moments of stresslessness. I never get those now; I’m always under stress (which makes not picking a lot harder). I’d love to look the way I did in those pictures again. Seeing them gives me hope that I can.