My Picking Issues

I just found this site and thought I would share. I've been picking various parts of my body since I was fairly young. I think I started by obsessively cleaning my nails; like using one hands nails to scrape underneath the other hands nails. Only problem is there usually isn't any dirt under my nails and the longer they get the more obsessive I get over it. They usually are sore because it's almost like I clean them so much that I separate the skin/nail a tiny bit so the white part of my nail always looks uneven. Seeing that causes me to clean them more to try and smooth it out. I usually keep my nails short or I go insane. Next (as embarrassing as it is to admit) I would compulsively pick my nose when I'm alone. Throughout middle school and high school I stopped pretty much, but in the last year (winters are the worst because of dry skin) I can't seem to stop. When my nose builds up I can feel it and it drives me crazy. I don't do it unless I'm at home alone, but if I'm out and my nose is plugged it really bothers me. What started it again was it felt like there was something in my nose but i pushed it back up into my nose so I'd spend a bunch of time trying to get it out. Sometimes I'd draw blood. Right now there is a very tender scab on the inside of my nose that I've been re-opening for weeks. It hurts if I leave it alone, but scratching it out (which is really painful) just gets rid of it temporarily until it scabs back up and the cycle continues. When I got into high school my clear skin broke out in acne and lasted all of high school. I'm 20 now and I still have a lot of break outs even though I'm on birth control. I used to pick my pimples until they bled and my mom used to constantly try and get me to stop. Thankfully I did because I was scared I'd scarred my face. I still have this compulsive face rubbing thing that I do though. If I'm at home on the computer or something I just sit and rub my face with my fingers taking what feels like layers of skin? I'm not sure why I do that, but it's definitely another compulsion. I'm almost positive that the face rubbing clogs up my pours and ends up causing more acne but I can't seem to stop myself. The most painful and irritating picking habit I have is picking at my hangnails/cuticles. I only do it because they're there and I want to get rid of them. It ends up with me either biting at them to try and cut them off (but usually ends up in extending it a bit further) or I use my nails to try and pull them off. My cuticles are all shorter than they should be and my pointer finger has lost like 90% of it a couple of times. It's disgusting and painful, but it constant. I'm always rubbing at them if I'm not picking at them because I can feel dead skin. What's just as irritating though is that because I use the same front tooth to do this my tooth is actually uneven than the other front too and sticks out from the other. Sometimes it aches a bit, probably from the pushing out. I had braces in middle school so having this happen sickens me. I make it worse by biting at the skin on my lips. Same tooth. I also do the rubbing thing on my lips. I have a way to keep this problem at bay somewhat, which is always having chapstick on me. I also seem to have that tendancy so compulsively pull/pluck out hair off my body. It was much worse in high school, and I stopped doing it with my nails because I would always break the skin under my nail by applying so much pressure trying to pluck out the hair. Never have I done this with head hair, or picked at stuff enough to make it bleed everywhere but it's enough to drive me insane and feel horrible about myself. I've had anxiety issues all my life and have been on anxiety drugs since 6th grade (changed to Zoloft in 10th). I have pretty low self esteem, and these issues just make them worse. My thoughts when I do these things is not 'I want to punish myself, yadda yadda', I just have this strange compulsion to try and clean myself or something but it doesn't work at all. I wear hand lotion as much as possible and try my best to clip off dead skin on my nails instead of pick at them, but my idle mind always ends up doing it when I don't realize it. I'm sure others can relate to some of most of these issues (saw them on the site), but I just felt like getting this out because my friends and family don't get it.