Cuticle Cutting

Hi. I along with many others am shocked to find out I am not alone in my obsession. I am 37 and started cutting my cuticles approximately 2 years ago. It all started when I lost my house to the bank. I was forced to move in with my parents. As I could no longer afford to get my nails done, I decided to buy my own nail supplies. This is when I saw my first cuticle cutter! At first I only used it when I did my nails, now I no longer do my nails, I only cut. Just recently (a few months ago) is when I started including my nails in this. I not only cut my cuticles, but the skin around it - I mean ALL the skin I can possible cut...until there is none, and I MUST wait until it grows back to cut more (usually a day or so). My fingers bleed and are always raw. I always knew I was obsessive-compulsive, but this, this .... is unbelievable! I can feel the obsession 'over-flowing' within me. I no longer look up at the tv, I miss everything going on and I WILL NOT stop until that something inside of me is satisfied. It starts with me noticing there is dirt under my nails (no matter how slight). I will use the cuticle cutters to remove it, then it progresses from there. I bleed, yet continue on, just on a different finger. I am going to my first therapy appointment and I will report back as to what she has to say. I should mention I also suffer from depression and am on zoloft; although it doesn't seem to do much (3 years of zoloft). All I can say, at this point, for sure is that there is (for me) a feeling of not being satisfied until I've picked away every finger I have, and that I pick up the cuticle cutters at least 10 times a day.