I promise myself I will quit. Now.

I have never tried to quit. I am going to quit now. This has controlled my life- what I wear, where I go, who I see. I love myself and I don't want anything controlling me. I am setting myself free of the weight of this disorder because I am going to be conscious and aware of my actions. my plan: i used to pick in the morning after my shower. what i will do now is shower and immediately put on lotion because I don't pick my skin after i have lotion on. i will put on my lotion before looking in the mirror right when i step out of the shower. i pick my arms when i am working on writing for my courses. i will always wear a sweatshirt when i am writing so that i don't mindlessly mess with my arms. as i find myself picking, i will be aware and find out when i am week and come up with more solutions. i will not get emotional about it, or worried about it. it is nonsensical to continue so i will, no, I HAVE STOPPED. :) everyday when i make my to do list on the top will be: don't pick this will never control my life again. it is okay that i used to do this, but i won't do it again. because i love myself and i don't want to hurt myself. today is day 1. i will be back to report next sunday.