slowly losing hope

Hi Everyone, So i once again had to call into work. Last week I missed four days because of multiple sores on my nose caused from over picking. I literally stayed in my room for 48 hours afraid to even face my roomate. I keep telling myself to stay home and not to put make up on because it is just clogging the pores, but it seems I can't even go into the bathroom without picking at least one spot on my face and once it starts it doesn't stop. I will be in front of the mirror for hours. Yesterday was one of those days where i could feel the bumps so I went to work trying to force stuff out of them and today I am left with hideous picked patches of skin all over my cheeks and nose. I just don't know what to do anymore. : ( I have proved to myself that I can go days without picking yet still seem to end up ruining my face soon after. At this point I am considering quitting my job and moving out of my apartment into a one bedroom, but I am not sure that this will help. I have tried everything on the face of the earth to try to clear my skin because I feel if there are no longer any clogged pores than i wont have to worry about picking. There have been times when I would squeeze every part of my face to try to "clear" out any black or white heads and all it did was cause chaos. I just can't seem to stop. This is the worse it has ever been and I am having a really hard time dealing with it. I just want to be able to live a normal life and to stop letting this control me. I would love any feedback or to hear from people who might be struggling with acne and skin picking too.