picked after about 10 days of being clean

Well....i picked today. What else is new? I just felt like writing about my issue on this forum and, maybe another person will read it and be able to relate or give advice. Maybe, this will even help someone, which would be great. I guess I can consider myself a skin picker in recovery. I used to pick very heavily in college and high school, and now I am 27 and pick at my face, check and back about once a week. Usually I do it when I'm stressed, upset or have PMS. I'll notice a tiny blackhead or a small pimple, which nobody else can probably notice. Once you pick one, it's over. And I don't mean it's over, as if you are done picking. I mean it's over for my logic and sense and it is up to my wild, compulsive addicted inner self to kill my skin, my self esteem and my plans for that Friday night. I told my boyfriend about my skin picking addiction a few weeks ago. He's the first person I've told. I explained that sometimes he'll see me upset for no reason because I'm mad at myself for relapsing and picking. One time, I picked at ONE pimple and got so upset, I couldn't even talk to him for hours. I had to explain to him what my problem is. He listened and seemed to understand. He reassured me that my skin looked beautiful and I was a beautiful woman. I am so lucky to have such a kind man. I definitely got a lot better at controlling myself. What helps for me is to stop myself from picking the very FIRST pimple or blackhead or scab or whatever. We are like alcoholics. We can't have one drink and stop. I also, stick to a strict beauty routine to eliminate all the pimples I can. The fewer imperfections there are, the less likely we are to pick. My third trick is to keep busy and keep social. You are not going to have time to pick if you are having fun with your friends and family. I picked at my chest. I was able to stop myself from going to my face. I have an audition for a musical a day after tomorrow and if my pimples don't heal after tonight, I'm going to look a mess. Lots of concealer will be needed and I will still feel self-couscous, as if everyone is staring at my scabs. Sigh... Well, tomorrow is a new day and a new opportunity to start from scratch. My relapses happen less and less often, so I guess I'm making progress. Let me know what you guys think, or feel free to post any comments and thoughts. Anastasia