Lost and Alone

So wow, I couldn't even go longer than a wk. and half before breaking down and getting into my face. I picked at one side of my face, now I have purple looking scabs. I look like that character in Batman, one side of my face looks great, the other looks like I got in a really bad cat fight. In fact, today at work one of my students asked me why my face was black and blue! This is so depressing, especially since it is Mother's Day Weekend, I was so excited, especially since my face had been looking better than it had in a long time... I had started my diet Monday, was seeing progress and then bam I start picking again. I was feeling more stressed yesterday than normal, due to my schedule so I'm not sure if that is why I got into my face but nonetheless; I feel so depressed, don't want to leave the house, whether it is Mother's Day Sunday or not. However, my husband just informed me I don't have a choice, I appreciate his in encouragement and how he still tells me how beautiful I am to him but I don't see myself that way so it really doesn't make me feel any better. What do I do, go this weekend or stay home and ruin my Mothers Day? Is it worth it... for everyone to see the freak that I am. I really thought I was on top of this, that this time was different then all the others. I guess that's were I went wrong, I let my guard down!