My dog thinks im hideous

hello... so we dont judge here i hope??? i jus so happen to stumble across this website after a 26 hour picking session (potty and snack breaks inbetween) trying to find a remedy for the sores ive made and I cant believe there are other ppl who do this. i dont do drugs believe it or not. but yes i spent a day and an hour glued infront of a mirror with a needle and a pair of tweezers digging and now my face is purple and swollen. I am absolutely unrecognizable from what i looked like a couple days ago. I am powerless over this, even as i am doin it i tell myself, ok ill jus pop one more and that will be it, but then that pimple isnt good enough so ill start to dig until i pull the root out...It doesnt matter how many times i try to stop, every time i walk by a mirror or see/feel a bump on my skin anywhere i must squeeze,scratch, push or prode until something comes out. normally every blemish has a hair in it, if i pluck the hair, then squeeze extra hard one last time the final small white ball of shit comes out meaning i got all of it...omg. Typing this I feel like such a freak but I hope that someone else knows what i mean. I pray u arent wasting a whole day fucking up your face couped up in ur room perched in an awkward pose with a hand-held mirror like some sort of crack head.... I wish i could post a picture with my eyes blurred out on here so everyone could see how ridiculous I am... Jus so damn fed up and ashamed with myself!