Rock Bottom

I can relate to so many of the things that have been written on this forum. I'm 26 and have been picking at my face since I was 15. Mine started with acne. I've had several mental breakdowns through this whole situation, but this past weekend was an all time low. I was mentally prepared to get out of the house and back to the gym after 5 days of secluding myself in the house. The spots on my face had pretty well healed, I got dressed, put together my gym bag and then I sat in front of the mirror and picked and picked and picked until all I wanted to do was cry and go back to bed. I layed in bed and cried for nearly 5 hours with terrible thoughts streaming through my head. At this point I knew I had to reach out for help. I live with my fiance who has known of this problem for several years now. He couldn't see me suffer anymore so he has brought this issue to my parents. I felt very ashamed and worthless, however, it has proven so far to be very beneficial. My parents and fiance are very supportive and extremely non judgmental. Their support is what led me to seek help and is ultimately how I came across this website. I am at the very earliest of stages of beating this but I want to so desperately. My fiance took down all unnecessary mirrors in the house (as I only pick when in front of the mirror) and the rest of them are covered up unless I'm getting ready for work. So far this has worked for 2 days now. I want to be a part of the 21 day club and a survivor of this terrible disorder. Anyone that wants to talk or share ideas that have helped them please don't hesitate to contact me. Best of luck. I know as a team we can all get through this daily struggle!