Ruining my face

Hey Soembarassed....I was just wondering---its been about 2 weeks since I initially put all these terrible open wounds on my face, and I THOUGHT that it was getting better, until I completely took the calamine lotion off. I wish they had a make-up that similiar to calamine, thick and able to cover all of these marks....anyways- just curious- did the calamine ALSO help fade the pink fleshy type scars, that are left, when the scab falls off??? I look terrible, and I picked TWO MORE marks below the left side of my lip. They look really purplish and bruised--- where the scabs have fallen off, and the skin is left looking really pink, make-up doesnt stay on those spots well at all- and im just hoping that if I continue to use the calamine today and tomorrow, that by Thursday I MAY see some differences in the scarring??? Do you think im even giving it enough time? The two really big marks on the lower portions of my face, by my chin, on the left and right sides-- they are still scabbed over. Its been 2 weeks- how long did it take for all of your really major marks to go away, or atleast fade, for the most part??? Im just freaking out again, and so sick of looking at my face, when it has no calamine, and no make-up on it, and seeing NOTHING but big, pink fleshy marks all over it. This is absolutely disgusting. I really am considering not goign to work AGAIN this weekend, although I know if I do that, I wont have a job anymore. I already pulled that shit last weekend, because of MY FACE,....I lied and said that I WAS sick. If you can, please share your experience with me, on HOW LONG it took for all the stuff to go away or fade, and if I should continue to use the calamine lotion- or if I should switch to cleansing, and doctoring it with neosporin, to further try and speed up the healing process, and the scabs coming off.

Ok...no picking. However I have a question. I have been putting scar cream and bio oil on one of my scars. Little bits of skin are flaking off. Is this good? Does it mean the skin is regenerating and the scar is fading? I really cant tell if it looks better as it is all I can see and I think it looks hideous! What do you all think? Good or bad?

Ugh...no picking for a month! I still hate the way my skin looks!!!

I've had the same skin picking disorder, it used to be much worse I still do need help but! I have to recomment retin-a or tretinoin cream. I'm using .025% tretinoin which is the same as the .025% retin-a cream (I've used both) they work miracles, healing, acne, sundamage, EVERYTHING I've. Been using it for 2 months and so far everything is fading, scars from picking too! I still pick at blackheads I have, but I'm getting better. This really is miracle cream, it does wonders.

soembarrassed, dont give up ! its hard to see drastic progress when you look at yourself and notice the subtle changes everyday.. maybe you should start taking pictures of your face, like twice a week so you can objectively see how you have healed. even if you arent happy with your skin yet, you are always healing as long as you dont pick.

I am wearing a bandaid or two tonight after I opened up a crater in the dead middle of my face. I thought I was on an upswing too, and was avoiding the pitfalls that usually trigger me to pick. I don't know what caused me to rip open this scab today, but it hurt so badly when I finally got to the point where there was bleeding and i just broke down crying from pain inside and out. I slathered it with neosporin and put a bandaid over it to hide it from my fingers and my self confidence. I will be freaking out all day at work tomorrow thinking that's all people will see of me. Fall down one thousand times, get up one thousand and one....

First of all, i send u my love and well wishes, you are a beautiful soul and realizing that will allow you to accept your physical image because your physical being is not where the value is, look at yourself with eyes of love and eternal acceptance. Compliment yourself on your inner qualities, like... " I'm so blessed to be a person of integrity... Or o what a great friend I am!" forgive yourself and anyone else who has hurt you. Let go of the beliefs you have taken on (from society, or your parents or wherever in your life) that do not serve you well. Realign your values with eternal conscienceness,,,,,, Breathe into life the wholeness of yourself, and vision your inner beautiful soul over taking your physical looks and acknowledge that the power of creation exists inside of us all and with the willpower and belief behind it, you can create ANYTHING! ........... So some advice on healing open wounds, scars or scabs I find that EGG WHITES!! WORK THE BEST"........................... You can leave it on as long as u want and even layer more on top of the layer before it after it dries! .................. Also consider doing a face peel like pineapple or papaya enzyme very 3 days to keep the dead skin off of your face. And when the sores start to heal, vitamin e oil or fresh aloe Vera plant. Wash with natural sugar in your face wash (with salycylic acid) it will help exfoliate and soften skin!!!!!!!!!!............. When u start to analyse your skin, STOP! Do something to startle yourself, like clap loudly or splash cold water on ur face. Say NO! I'm perfectly made and I will not give into negative actions against myself!!........... Also check out Hungarian wellness mud. It's great stuff too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...... Always moisturize your skin and use a retinoil cream to help maintain clear skin! And sunscreen is vital! I wish u success!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! In honor of the light inside of us all from the same source, May peace engulf your soul, msmelissa

I wish i would get to a point where i am happy and comfortable with my skin. I am not happy wearing makeup it just feels gross...and i am even more uncomfortable not wearing makeup...ugh.